to make it clear

hey its been awhile right? I ain't hiding, I ain't go nowhere, but I really really really have the reason why I can't post any entries. Did you miss me? Guess I've missed a lot right now, like so much! I've got so much nothing for my holiday actually! But that doesn't matter............... No one's gonna understand, including you.

MOVE TO THE REAL TOPIC.. it's not a big matter actually but yeah, take deep breathe before read my post.

"don't you feel bored with your nothing special blog?"
"why you no put any musics into your blog? you don't want entertain your readers?"
"there's nothing in your blog, no movements, no any creative decorations?"
"don't you afraid to post the entries in your blog publicly?" 


Well, guys, i don't really care with your questions, i don't take it serious, i don't mind with those questions. Only one thing, YOU SHOULD GO GET A LIFE.

For your first question, I don't need any special on my blog site, I just need the specialty of my life to tell you what do I do, what do I eat, activities, etc etc...

Secondly, music ha? ay, i don't entertain people thru my blog site, I do entertain in front of you or you may visit my youtube channel. kbye

Next~
hahahaha so funny, I don't want any movements or creative whatever it called in my blog site! i found its too much like rubbish.. messy, even though i am such a mess.

and the very last question, the highlighted one, I don't have to be afraid to post anything here, it depends on people right? but i think its no wrong to post anything i want here, plus i never post anything private of my life, so I don't have to be worry.




P.s : this post is actually has been saved in draft for a long time ago, so i hope you feel no bored to read my "was-emotional-expression-like-there's-no-tomorrow".

Thanks xx

8 things I should stop complain about

I keep complain anything around me whatever it catches my eyes, like I'm the only one living in this huge world. Despite the feelings of controlling or owning something is amazing, in the changing process of myself today I must reduce my habits of keep complaining what is happening around the world. I have just read someone tweets, when you're in a relationship, there are two tips for the happy relationships, which are, "first when you're wrong, admit it. Second, when you're right, shut up" . So I was thinking this can relate to my opinions of what I always have grumbled about. HAH this isn't that easy actually, but I'm making my move, serious move to be in a reality. I won't be regret about it. Trust.

8 things I must stop abuse about : 

1. Little dwarf

- people keeps saying I'm tiny in size, and call me shorty, I was really cared about that much, it's a big issue when I was 18 years old. I did mind about it. But when I think it back, Oh I'm short, I'm okay with it, I got to get used of it, and I keep convince to myself, short isn't that bad, more or less, there are always advantages and disadvantages right? You can call me shorty now or you got punched if you're rude haha kidding. Bazinggaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

2. I got no replies

- fact I get mad easily if there's no one gives me a reply, at least one reply, when I send any text messages, and ended with a silent phone, I might be worse than a monster and eat a lot of rice. So, from now on, I must try not to be a mad person next time, I must think there's nothing on no replies, because there'll be some reasons. The idea here is I'm promising myself not to force or push anyone again in reality unless I have too.

3. I need food and I'm dying

- damn sure I never been patient in hunger. I always need foods in any time, junk foods, fast foods, healthy foods, oh damn I eat too much sometimes, which make me happy but after that, sadness of biggy tummy will  appear. What I should do for now is chill, balancing a diet, don't eat and drink, no diet pills(must avoid), less sugar and salts, less spicy foods, whatever it called as healthy foods, I must take. Junk foods are a must, but I can only eat whenever I needed it, not only at a sad moment, lmao that's lame ;p to conclude, I must be more balancing diets from now on. Foods are many, choose the healthy one ;) join me?

4. Something trending

- There are so many issues trending right now and they give us a big impact to the world, countries, states, and individuals, depend on opinions too. I have mine as well, an opinion, that I don't care, if someone wants to change, then let him/her be. I don't really care about anything don't make sense in my life. In fact, I just realized, a little bit sorry for this, but I must concern about these too, because it will help as in motivate or guide me to do what am I suppose to do next, am I in the wrong way? Why people keeps staring at me? Do I look weird. Okay that was far. Well, in the mean time, I must start my concern about all around the world now. 

5. Hair

- I keep complaining this since I have my long hair back, it's just take time to get use all of this, I am now using three different shampoos without letting it finish, because having long hair isn't that easy, I must take care of my hair. I know this is a bit weird, but I think my hair is having a bad condition right now, I don't know why, but I'll make it during my holiday. Once I got hair that I want, I'm so gonna stop complain about it anymore. I TRY!

6. Things I want and don't have

- We always have the moments when you need something but you can't really have it, and it is always in your wish lists everyday everytime you pray, you'll always pointing at it. "your time will come, you don't have to be worry, once you got it, just don't forget anything else much important than this" . Sentence from someone who always inspired me for not forgetting about the world. Wake up calls from somebody is cool, you just have to thank them :) Stop complain, there's always some reasons why you can't have it now, who knows soon? Only God knows.

7. Damn it Internet why you move so slow?! #!@$%

- I swear, slow internet is much worse than a slow person, right? Free internet is always slow, don't hope too much, but I am with you guys, a slow internet isn't right. So, our next generations, who will be an Internet Engineers, will you create an adorable and fast satellite to connect Internet way faster than this? Demanding is good sometimes. Special request from me anyway. Well, I can'y escape from complaining this damn slow internet but, I'll try not to swear and give any harsh words. Try.

8. This is so lame, that is so lame. 

- I used to underestimate everyone around me before, but hey, forgive me cause I think now and lemme make it clean, nothing is lame today! I talk to everyone, I see anything, I watch anything, no boredom, no anything over stuffs, whatever it is, I'll be more positive on new stuffs perhaps. No, I'm not pretending to like it but I'll make myself to like it. Maybe by a little bit analysis? Geek me?  Ok acceptable.

To make it simple, I won't keep myself to complain about anything. 

"There's nothing if you can't reach your goals, don't let your emotions drive you, come back!'

mirror of me

Hey I know I broke my promises not to blog for a week I guess, but I can't let my self only with books all the time. Brains need rest, so do we, so I'm now stealing a little time to read others' blogs, and have a rest as well. Talk about promises, I can't hold promises literally, I can but it can only lasts long for only five minutes, you may call it shit, but tell me about it, I can do nothing about it. Seriously.

I used to say "there's nothing on new year, its just a date, and I'll just move and go with the flow" . In fact, I was wrong, there must be something on new year, different years, different dates, different dates have their own moments. I am now must remember every moments I've faced, because I realized pasts are the most third important things in me. First, family. Second, my life. 

Life in 2011 was fun not dull, just normal, usual and unusual moments, met hello goodbye people, had come and go feelings, etc etc. For all I know, I've met new people, new surrounding, new life styles, new accents, new languages, new study styles, and new learning. I don't start with hate, I start with a smile, just don't let me loss my trusts towards you. I can talk to anybody if you really want to talk, I can't hundred percent be trusted but everyone's secrets are all safe with me, don't expect me too much, everyone makes mistakes. I don't care with all the hate things, if you wanna shoot me or give me a bomb, just give me ahead. I don't hate, that's my words for you.

My life is full of colors, joys, musics, happiness, I am now trying to let the colors match with my future, I need to add the joys moments more, gain musics to apply on guitar, bring the happiness till the end. There are always back up plan, I wish I could more way better today than last year.

Ignore the messy background

Messy is always with me, I do have messy mind, life and sometimes my appearances. Mess isn't always that bad, I'm having my messy life so I can keep myself in wrong condition process of learning on something. Every wake up calls happen to me, I think with not giving up of anything. Do not underestimate me, but that's what I think and have now :)

In life, we always make assumptions, such as "what if......" , "i don't think this......" , "I think this is....." , "......don't know yet" . I'm now making few assumptions on myself so I can be ready  in any disaster for future. 

Past, people keeps saying its not good to think back what we had face, but I think it is no harm to reflect back what had you done, face, good or bad things, anything could affect you on something, its all depend on you either to be better or bad. 

Family is always the first choice mine, life without family is just the like a heart without haemoglobins. They cheer me up, support me in everything what I do. I thank God for that, and you don't know how much I love my family so much, even when I'm a little bit tempered, but they still can accept for who I am. Up and down together. 

If there's a hole inside you, your family, or any relationships, why don't you just put a smile into them? They'll appreciate you or remember you always anytime. 

pain

No pain, no gain. It does mean big to us. We learn something from our mistakes. I have my flaws too, I made mistakes, but I don't look myself down but moving on in life.

- trust , if you can't trust someone, let it be, don't over reacted to talk behind him/her. 

- afraid, everyone does fear on something, if you can't help with it, then move with your like sports! 

- hurt, don't hurt too much on silly things, it just waste your time. Wake up and move your butt out!

- cry, don't forget to cry, our eyes need to let out the waters, so does your heart, spill to someone who you can trust with.

- blame, don't easily blame someone, think, or discuss, you don't have to be an investigator and blaming on someone. Avoid pointing on people. Yourself comes first, apology then discuss.

Kittens teach you happiness, go try play with them, you'll see the joys. Don't hope for something out of the box, cause sometimes, something in front of you might make you smile. Do not forget to thank God for what you have everything today. Bad or good, there must be a reason why those happened. 

"to live, must believe"

Again,  I don't claim to be a famous, well-known, primadona, etc.. But I just wanna be a role of model of my generation. Don't be famous because of rudeness. Warn!